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Saturday, July 28, 2007
In Memory
This is Amy writing, Tracy's niece, the wild child in all the pictures in the past blogs of Tracy's.
I regret to inform you that Tracy passed away on July 15th at 1:45pm. She lost her thirteen month battle to pancreatic cancer. She was dearly loved and will be truly missed.
Here is her obituary:
Teresa "Tracy" ,51, passed away Sunday, July 15, 2007, after a courageous 13-month battle with pancreatic cancer. Memorial service: 1 p.m. Saturday at St. Alban's Episcopal Church. Memorials: In lieu of flowers, the family requests that donations be made to National Fragile X Foundation, Box 190488, San Francisco, Calif. 94119, or Special Olympics Texas, State Headquarters, 7715 Chevy Chase Drive, Suite 120, Austin, Texas 78752.Tracy was born in Coronado, Calif., on Aug. 6, 1955, to Lt. Cmdr. Allen L. and Jane B. Clark. She was the baby of five, having three older brothers and one older sister. She lived in California, Tennessee, Washington and Missouri before moving to Arlington in 1965 as a skinny, gap-toothed 11-year-old girl. It was then that she met her future husband, Kenneth Husch, a friend of her brother, Pat. Fifteen years later, Ken and Tracy were married and have remained so since.Tracy is known for her talents for growing magnificent flowers and decorating beautiful cookies and her love of pugs (especially Cookie and Ernie). She was active in Special Olympics with her son, Danny, and donated thousands of decorated cookies over the years to various Arlington schools and special ed activities. Her baking stints in the kitchen are legend among her family, especially the year of the chocolate mice. Tracy was preceded in death by her father; and her brother, Patrick.Survivors: Husband, Ken; sons, Gregory Patrick, Thomas Arthur and Daniel Franklin; her first grandchild, Riley Patrick, son of Gregory and Christine; her mother; three of the four siblings; and numerous nieces, nephews, cousins and friends who loved her dearly and will miss her greatly.
Thank you so much for reading and being faithful friends and fans.
God Bless!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Friday, April 20, 2007
still fighting
Last weekend Ken and I went to the hill country. We rented a log cabin on a cattle ranch. It was so much fun. I caught 2 of the biggest catfish I have ever caught. I forgot to bring my camera though. This picture is from their website. We had a bad storm Friday night that was pretty scarey because they said there was a torando a few miles from us. Turned out there wasn`t one. The cabin had a little cabin next to it with a big claw bathtub. It was wonderful, I think I stayed in there 2 hours. Ken kept coming out to check on me. We ate at the Koffee Kup in Hico, Coopers bar-b-que in Llano and the bluebonnet cafe in Marble Falls. We went to the wildflower seed farm and drove the Willow City Loop and looked at all the wildflowers. The blue bonnets were so thick looking down from the cliffs it looked like you were looking at a lake. It was so nice to get away. There was a cold front after that storm and we had a huge fire in the fire place Saturday night. I really want to go back there soon.
I had chemo today. I feel ok for now. I hope my platelets and billiruben stay ok so I can stay on schedule or I will never finish chemo.Saturday, March 24, 2007
i`m still alive
I have been exhausted! I`m having chemo and it isn`t too bad. It mainly just makes me really tired. I have been working in my flowerbeds. Last year I was afraid I wouldn`t be around to see another spring. I hope to see many more. I am feeling good and think I`m gonna beat this. Ken and the kids are doing good. Greg and Christine are looking for a house. They have decided on a name Rielly Patrick Husch. Patrick is for my brother and it is Gregs middle name. I gained a pound last week. Now I just need to gain 8 more. I am going to call Dr Lyons next week and see about getting a port put in. I am tired of them running IV`s. It hurts too much. I am also going to see if he can take the little basal cell off my lip. Well thats all for now. Bye
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
chemo
My chemo went pretty well.I felt fine Fri. Sat Silvia came over. We had a nice visit. Sat night i startee feeling bad. I was up all night. My tummy was upset all night long. Friday nihjt when I was dressing for bed and noticed a new abcess, The abcess opened on its own Sat. I called the dr and I am on antibiotics. i hope i can have my chemo Fri I really want to get this over and down with.
Friday, March 02, 2007
tgif
I went to chemo today. I feel ok. When I was changing into my pj`s I found a new abscess. It hasn`t opened up yet but I`m sure it will this weekend. I wonder if that is why I have been getting headaches. I hope I can go to chemo next week. I want to get it over with! Gawd Ken told me tonight he doesnT want Danny to go to school next year and i just boo-hooed!!!! I am going to try to get MHMR to come get him ready for school in the mornings. Ken is exhausted. He has been doing absolutely everything. I am doing good to water my plants and put out bird feed. I really want him to go to school or I will be stressed trying to get him to activities to keep him somewhat busy. He is losing some weight around 30 pounds this year and if he doesn`t go to school all he wants to do is play on his computer and nintendo. If I feel good enough i`m going to make Easter or st.Patricks day cookies for school. I miss going to school activiities. Mon is Texas pubic school week and i am planning to go Monday night.I had to get up early so I think i`ll go to sleep early. peace and love
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Bye bye Feb.
I haven`t been feeling too good. I go to the onc. tomorrow. If my blood work is better I will get chemo Friday. Not much is going on. I sleep a lot. Everyone is doing well. Danny is so cute. He stayed home today. When I woke up he was sweeping the den. He said he was cleaning the house. He is such a sweetheart. I was going to make banana pudding. I got out the mixer and was getting the stuff out to make it when I discovered he ate almost all the nilla wafers. Ken is going to get some more on his way from work. When I got of the shower today Ernie one of my my pug had been in my purse and got my gum out and had eaten it. I hope it doesn`t make him sick. Well enough for today.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
I guess I doomed my blog by saying I`d write more. I have been feeling terrible since I started chemo. I couldn't`t have it this week because my platelets were to low. I think I may need some blood. I am going to call the doctor Monday. I lost 2 more pounds too. I weigh 109 now. My hernia is awful! Right below the hernia my "waist" is 28 inches then it balloons to 33 where my incision is. I hate it, I look deformed. I bought some size 6 jeans and they are too big. I guess I shouldn't`t complain at least I`m alive.
I`m trying to think of boys name for Greg and Christine's baby. I like john Kenneth and call him jack. I also like Wyatt .I have got to send The ring to George or I will run out of time.Ok I took my ambien so I better go to bed.
I`m trying to think of boys name for Greg and Christine's baby. I like john Kenneth and call him jack. I also like Wyatt .I have got to send The ring to George or I will run out of time.Ok I took my ambien so I better go to bed.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
I posted too early yesterday
I got so sick last night. I had a fever of 101.3 and threw up and had diarrhea and an awful headache. I feel a lot better today. I hope I feel better tomorrow because I need to shopping.
I hope the sun comes out tomorrow its been cold and wet all week. Okay it is 2:00 am I better go to saleep.
I hope the sun comes out tomorrow its been cold and wet all week. Okay it is 2:00 am I better go to saleep.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
First chemo
Well I finally had my first chemo. It wasn`t bad. I didn`t get sick at all. The worst part was starting the IV. She had to stick me twice. I read my pamplet on gemzar. Only thing I have noticed so far is my arthritis is hurting but that could just be the crazy weather. I slept thru most of my chemo. I go back next Friday at 10:00.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
not doing so good on my resolution
Okay I know I still need to blog more. I was supposed to have started chemo yesterday but it was snowy and icy and it was cancelled. I go tomorrow instead. I am sooo tired of this cold weather,jeez I`m Texas it shouldn`t be this cold. But then again it is stock show time and the weather usually sucks for that but usually not this bad.
I have been having super weird dreams not that that is anything new. Last night I dreamed I had a kidnapped baby at my house. I didn`t kidnap it but i took it in. All the family was over and no one asked about the baby. I also dreamed I had my horse back and my Sammy cat came home. Oh and I had a stolen dog here too, a black lab.
The night before I dreamed I was in Joplin and it was snowing there and I didn`t have a car and wasn`t dressed for the weather. I had walked and walked trying to find the old neighborhood. I ended up on a dead end street that had a little antique store and I went in and talked to the woman. I decided to steal a car and got in a shoot out with her hubby. I killed them both but i was hit between the eyes but I was ok. That was the end of the dream. Maybe the dreams are from all the meds I`m taking. I keep falling asleep with my labtop in bed. The ambien really knocks me out.
Well I guess I should be going to bed. I`ll right tomorrow and let you know how chemo goes.
I have been having super weird dreams not that that is anything new. Last night I dreamed I had a kidnapped baby at my house. I didn`t kidnap it but i took it in. All the family was over and no one asked about the baby. I also dreamed I had my horse back and my Sammy cat came home. Oh and I had a stolen dog here too, a black lab.
The night before I dreamed I was in Joplin and it was snowing there and I didn`t have a car and wasn`t dressed for the weather. I had walked and walked trying to find the old neighborhood. I ended up on a dead end street that had a little antique store and I went in and talked to the woman. I decided to steal a car and got in a shoot out with her hubby. I killed them both but i was hit between the eyes but I was ok. That was the end of the dream. Maybe the dreams are from all the meds I`m taking. I keep falling asleep with my labtop in bed. The ambien really knocks me out.
Well I guess I should be going to bed. I`ll right tomorrow and let you know how chemo goes.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
I start chemo tomorrow.
I start chemo tomorrow at 10:30. Ken is going to go with me to see how I do. I am scared I`m going to get sick. Hopefully it won`t be too bad.
Amy was supposed to come highlight my hair but didn`t because Becca had to make a poster for school.
She was going to do it this past weekend but the streets were icy so she didn`t come then.
I had really weird dreams this morning. I was fighting with my mom in part of it. I was also hanging off a really tall building trying to get away from someone. I was mad about I raq and I was trying to get to Canada. It was a crazy dream.ok i need to go sleep my pills have kicked in!!!! night
Amy was supposed to come highlight my hair but didn`t because Becca had to make a poster for school.
She was going to do it this past weekend but the streets were icy so she didn`t come then.
I had really weird dreams this morning. I was fighting with my mom in part of it. I was also hanging off a really tall building trying to get away from someone. I was mad about I raq and I was trying to get to Canada. It was a crazy dream.ok i need to go sleep my pills have kicked in!!!! night
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Baby its cold out there!!!!
It was a nice quiet weekend. Tommy did his weekend in jail. He has another to do next weekend then he is done. I guess it went ok he didnt say much to me about it.
I did`t feel very good yesterday. I had a low grade fever.i threw up once.I feel pretty good today.i made a pie ,washede my sheets and blankets did the dishes and gave Danny a bath. I t felt good to0 to be able to contribute. I`m starting to feel a little stonger everyday. I should finally start chemo wed unless the weather gets too icy.
I did`t feel very good yesterday. I had a low grade fever.i threw up once.I feel pretty good today.i made a pie ,washede my sheets and blankets did the dishes and gave Danny a bath. I t felt good to0 to be able to contribute. I`m starting to feel a little stonger everyday. I should finally start chemo wed unless the weather gets too icy.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
wed night/thus morning
I went to Dr Disefano Mon. He said my asbcess looks pretty good. I should be able to start chemo next week.
I saw Dr Lyons Tues. He thinks I`m healing well and i don`t have to see him until May.
Today I saw Dr Kameron he said all my scopes looked good. He showed me some pics from the scoping. Yuck they were pretty gross. He told me to come back in 3 years. It is nice that he thinks I`ll be alive in 3 years.
I am getting a cat scan Friday and I go back to diStfano next MOn. If all goes well i should start chemo next wed.
Tomorrow i PLAN ON SLEEPING LATE AND FOLDING CLOTHES.well thats about all for now, I`m sleepy!!!
night all.
I saw Dr Lyons Tues. He thinks I`m healing well and i don`t have to see him until May.
Today I saw Dr Kameron he said all my scopes looked good. He showed me some pics from the scoping. Yuck they were pretty gross. He told me to come back in 3 years. It is nice that he thinks I`ll be alive in 3 years.
I am getting a cat scan Friday and I go back to diStfano next MOn. If all goes well i should start chemo next wed.
Tomorrow i PLAN ON SLEEPING LATE AND FOLDING CLOTHES.well thats about all for now, I`m sleepy!!!
night all.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
I thought my abscess was almost all healed,,,,well surprise it opened up again today :(i hope we can get my chemo started ths week beause i want it over and done with . I`ll right more tomorrow.
Coke taste good again. In fact almost everything taste good again. I still can`t eat much chocolate though it is just too hard on my tummy.
Ken bought his birthday present today. He got a windshield for Baby(his Harley). He is happy. I`m happy too because all I have gotten him is a book by Jerry Garcia that was on a sale rack at Barnes and Nobles. And i got him a nice card. I think we are going to go out to eat at Caro`s. I guess I will go to the Swiss bakery and get him a black forest cake too.
I haven!t downloaded any pictures yet but I might try to later. I just haven`t tried to do that from my desk top yet.
Danny loves his computer!!! He is on it all day and most the night. I can here him in there now playing something.
Okay I took my ambien so I guess it`s sleepy time for me.
Ken bought his birthday present today. He got a windshield for Baby(his Harley). He is happy. I`m happy too because all I have gotten him is a book by Jerry Garcia that was on a sale rack at Barnes and Nobles. And i got him a nice card. I think we are going to go out to eat at Caro`s. I guess I will go to the Swiss bakery and get him a black forest cake too.
I haven!t downloaded any pictures yet but I might try to later. I just haven`t tried to do that from my desk top yet.
Danny loves his computer!!! He is on it all day and most the night. I can here him in there now playing something.
Okay I took my ambien so I guess it`s sleepy time for me.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Wed. night or Thur.morning
I saw Dr.Lyons today. He stuffed gauze in my abscess. I hope it is the last one I get but I kind of doubt it will be.
He said the hard part of my scar is the calcified blood is almost like bone. I also told him about my blog but I don`t think I gave him the right address. I go back to him next week so I`ll give him the right addy then.
I am getting my hair cut tomorrow thank God. It is too long and it gets flat when it is too long.
I bought some new mascara today and threw all the old ones I had out.
I still haven`t been able to gain any weight but I haven`t lost anymore either. My ass is gone. I am really skinny except for my deformed tummy. My stomach looks so weird. Oh well as long as the cancer is gone I guess is all that matters. I get lab work done Fri and they are going check my CA-19. I hope my numbers are still low. I need to down load some pics onto here but I think my camera is in Dannys room and he is asleep.
It was weird being home alone today. Danny went back to school today. I ran into Mrs Mayo at Walmart and she said he had a good day today. She said he is so funny :) I think he is funny too.
I need to Dr. Cockrell and make an appointment to get his teeth checked but it is so traumatic but it has to be done. I also need to call the dermatologist because I think I have another basal cell on my lip :(.
Well it is really late and I better get some sleep. I`ll right more tomorrow and I`ll try to download some new pics.
He said the hard part of my scar is the calcified blood is almost like bone. I also told him about my blog but I don`t think I gave him the right address. I go back to him next week so I`ll give him the right addy then.
I am getting my hair cut tomorrow thank God. It is too long and it gets flat when it is too long.
I bought some new mascara today and threw all the old ones I had out.
I still haven`t been able to gain any weight but I haven`t lost anymore either. My ass is gone. I am really skinny except for my deformed tummy. My stomach looks so weird. Oh well as long as the cancer is gone I guess is all that matters. I get lab work done Fri and they are going check my CA-19. I hope my numbers are still low. I need to down load some pics onto here but I think my camera is in Dannys room and he is asleep.
It was weird being home alone today. Danny went back to school today. I ran into Mrs Mayo at Walmart and she said he had a good day today. She said he is so funny :) I think he is funny too.
I need to Dr. Cockrell and make an appointment to get his teeth checked but it is so traumatic but it has to be done. I also need to call the dermatologist because I think I have another basal cell on my lip :(.
Well it is really late and I better get some sleep. I`ll right more tomorrow and I`ll try to download some new pics.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Okay I said I would blog more so here goes. Lat night i went to bed freezing and woke up at 3:00 am with a fever of 101.8. Needless to say I felt awful. I took some tylenol and finally went back to sleep around 5:00. I slept til almost noon. I go to Dr Lyons tomorrow at 1:30. I go to the onc Monday, Ken`s birthday. I go to the lab Friday for blood work. I am so tired of going to doctors.
Monday, January 01, 2007
Happy New Year 2007
Wow 2007, I hope it is better than 2006 was. My new years resolution is to blog again. I have just been so tired and I guess feeling anti-social. I have been somewhat down. May just be post Xmas blues. It might be from the cancer issue. One day I need write down all the crazy hallucinations. I had in ICU. Well I need a shower. I have just layed around all day. I`ll write agin tomorrow.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
I haven`t written in a while, I guess I just got out of the habit. I am doing ok. I still haven`t started chemo yet. I should be starting this week if my lab work is good. I didn`t feel good yesterday. Not much is happening, well we did get some bad weather but it didn`t last long. I can`t believe it is Dec already. I have so much I need to do. I need to get the tree up and all the other decorations. Ken is still doing the brunt of the housework and everything else. I am starting to get blue. I guess I will go get Danny in the bath.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
I went to Dr Destepheno and Dr Lee yesterday. Ken went with me. My ca-19 number was up a little but it is still a pretty low. I found out I still have my stent in. I thought they took it out when I had my whipple. I have to go see Dr Kameron (GI doc) this afternoon. I feel good just still tired. If my lab work from yesterday is ok I will start chemo next Thursday. MMM I can`t wait til this Thursday ,Thanksgiving. I`m hungry! I need to make some cookies and pies. We are going to Sue`s to eat. Ken and I are to tired to have it here.
Friday, November 17, 2006
I have been so tired
I hate being tired and not feeling well. Only good thing from all of this is losing weight. I guess I shouldn`t bitch I could be doing a lot worse. I go to Dr.Destepheno and Dr. Lee on monday. I had a cat scan WED. I will get the results of the cat scan on Monday. Well I am going to watch Law and order and take my pills.
Monday, November 06, 2006
cool I finally got this working :)
Well finally I can blog again. Lots have happened since I last wrote here. I finished my 28 radiation treatments a week ago. I start chemo in a couple weeks I guess. I feel better but I am still tired. I am so happy this is working. I missed my blog. My cat Sammy left home :( I`m not sure where he went ,another house or kitty heaven. I miss him and dream of him often. The pugs are happy and spoiled as always.
Okay now the big news, I am going to a grandma!!!!!!Greg and Christine are pregnant. I am so excited. I am soooo happy, but now we need to have a wedding.
Okay now the big news, I am going to a grandma!!!!!!Greg and Christine are pregnant. I am so excited. I am soooo happy, but now we need to have a wedding.
Friday, August 04, 2006
It is so hot!
It is hot and dry!!! We really need rain. I can hardly stand to go outside. I went swimming yesterday at Sue`s. It felt wonderful. I was scared at first because Dr Lyons opened up a huge abcess Wed. but he said I could go swimming. My cousin Andrew is here. He is staying at Sue`s for a few days. He is going to come to my bday party. I should be cleaning house but I`m not.
Sonya is late. I wonder if she is even coming. I am getting pretty fed up with her. She didn`t come Mon and called Thur and said she would be here at 1:30 but showed up at 3 with another client so Danny wouldn`t go. She told me she would come at 1:30 today but it`s 2:00 now and she isn`t here. Well guess I`ll just have t o wait and see if she shows up.
Sonya is late. I wonder if she is even coming. I am getting pretty fed up with her. She didn`t come Mon and called Thur and said she would be here at 1:30 but showed up at 3 with another client so Danny wouldn`t go. She told me she would come at 1:30 today but it`s 2:00 now and she isn`t here. Well guess I`ll just have t o wait and see if she shows up.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
I know I haven`t written in ages. I just haven`t felt like it. I feel better now though. I am not as depressed as I was. I went to Dr.Lyons today and he opened up 2 abcesses. He deadened the area which hurt like hell. I am so tired of these damn abcesses. I need to start chemo but he says I can`t until my wounds are healed.
I took the dogs to the vet yesterday. They both have ear infections and there anal glands were a mess as always. Ernie got his shots. Cookie has ringworm. Thats how I got mine. Both dogs have to bathed every three days and Cookie has pills to take.
I`m having a birthday party Saturday. I`m pretty excited.
I took the dogs to the vet yesterday. They both have ear infections and there anal glands were a mess as always. Ernie got his shots. Cookie has ringworm. Thats how I got mine. Both dogs have to bathed every three days and Cookie has pills to take.
I`m having a birthday party Saturday. I`m pretty excited.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Sunday afternoon
I just ate a good peach!!! Gaye brought me some peaches and candy yesterday.
My abcesses are almost healed. I think I`m going to go swimming tomorrow. I need some exercise but it is still real hot out.
I take the dogs to the vets Tuesday to see if they have ringworm. Wed. I go to Dr.Lyons.The wound nurse comes tomorrow
My abcesses are almost healed. I think I`m going to go swimming tomorrow. I need some exercise but it is still real hot out.
I take the dogs to the vets Tuesday to see if they have ringworm. Wed. I go to Dr.Lyons.The wound nurse comes tomorrow
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Long week and it`s only Tuesday
Well once again I haven`t been writting much. I went to Dr Lyons today and he opened another abcess. I`m glad I took a pain pill before I went. My cousin George called me yesterday. It was good talking to him. He is going to make Ken a ring. I think I will give it to him on our anniversary. It will be 25 years. Tomorrow Danny has to go to the dr and get presciption. He also has bowling tomorrow night. I got the name of the cancer shrink from Lyons today. I need to call and make an
appointment. I cry so easy it isn`t even funny.Last night i thought Cookie hurt herself jumping off the bed . She flopping around and limping but she is ok. It really scared me at first. Well it is getting late I`m going to go to sleep.
appointment. I cry so easy it isn`t even funny.Last night i thought Cookie hurt herself jumping off the bed . She flopping around and limping but she is ok. It really scared me at first. Well it is getting late I`m going to go to sleep.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
I went to Dr Lyons yesterday. He is so nice, he says he thinks about me everyday. He says my lung is fine, just scared. He opened another abcess on my tummy. I am trying to do more and not lay in bed so much. I got up early and watered my flowers. I am still throwing up some and I`m really tired of it. I go through phases of being depressed. I feel ok today.
Monday, July 17, 2006
I think my right lung is messed up. I asked the nurse about it and she said there was deminished lung sounds. I think I go to to the Dr tomorrow so I`ll talk to him about it.My wounds are healing but slowly. It is so hot there is noway I can exercise outside.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
I haven`t writen much lately. I just haven`t felt like it. I am feeling better. The dr opened up that big abcess but it is draining some. I have been pretty depressed even though I am trying to be positive. Last night Danny got all ready to go bowling. We drove up there then he refused to get out of the car. He can be so frustrating at times. Mrs. Tillman and Mrs Mavvaji are coming to visit tomorrow.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
I feel alot better
I feel a lot better. My appite is back. I have been able to eat just about anything without any trouble. We did have chinese food tonight I wasn`t crazy about. My skin is sore from all the tape.My trach is healed up and at least I don`t have to cover it up anymore. I am really tired of the abcess on tummy . I have to change the dressing at least 6 times a day, I`m sure its more. Sue and Mike came over tonight and we played dominos. Sue and I won:) Well I took my ambian so i guess I will hit the hay.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
I went to the onocologist today. Dr Adams. He seems real nice.I cried like a baby all day . It all seems like a bad dream. I haven`t been sleeping well at all. I did just wake from a 3 hour catnap that I badly needed. Food still doesn`t taste right. I am sick of hauling that wound vac around. I guess I am going to start chemo when Lyons says I can. I just hope it doesn`t make me too sick. Danny didn`t go to bowling tonight. Ken and I are were just too tired to take him. He is glad I`m home.
Monday, July 03, 2006
feeling better
i am feeling better everyday. i got another tube out today. He also dug around on an abcess. now i am just hooked up to the wound vac. The wound nurse was supposed to come today but hasn`t. I am still exhausted. Dr says I have between 24 and 30 months. At least statisicly.I hope he is wrong. I go to the cancer center Wed.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
doing good
I am doing good but I sure am tired. I am trying to eat more. I hope I get the rest of my tubes outs this week. I keep finding out more and more about what happened in the hospital since I don`t rememeber anything.
Friday, June 30, 2006
Feeling better everyday
i feel better everday except nothing taste good. and I am exhausted. My wound is draining something awful. Well it is supposed to. I am using my new laptop. I like it. Ok time for a littl nap.bbl
Thursday, June 29, 2006
hi ya`ll
I feel better everyday.I`ve been sleeping alot!!!! I am so glad I`m home. Thanks to everyone for your prayers abnd good thought.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
whew i`m back
hi ya`ll I got home yesterday after 5 weeks in icu. I really wasn`t sure i was going to make it or not but I did. I am still in some pain and have some tubes in which hopefully will be gone next week . I need to go lay lay down. BBL
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
still feeling good
We signed our wills today. Jeez its about time. Well it is a done deal now! I slept really well last night but I sure am tired now. I need to go to walmart and get batteries for the camera for special olympics and I need a disk so I can make Danny a video. I also need to write Ken a love letter. I am so lucky to have him in my life.
Feeling good
I am finally feeling good. Too bad it won`t last long.Friday is my whipple. Oh well. I slept good last night even though I had some weird dreams. Today Ken and I go sign our wills and durable powers of attornies and all that stuff. Lynn came over last night and brought some stairs that were used in some play and the dogs actually use them to get on the bed. That is a relief they can get on the bed without being lifted. Ken ordered a laptop for me last night, Dude I`m getting a dell!!! He is such a sweetie. Well I need to type up a phone number list to take to the hospital. I`ll try to write tomorrow.
Friday, May 19, 2006
It`s been a busy week
I got out of the hospital Monday and spent most of Tuesday throwing up. Wed we went to Dr Lyons and he changed my meds. Instead of 5 antibiotics a day I take 2 and he gave me some really good drug to settle my tummy. We also met with the life planner and got a prelim draft of our will done. We meet with lawyer Tues to sign it. Yesterday I went to the special olympics banquet but we didn`t stay long becuse Danny wanted to leave. He stayed home today and we are just kickin back and relaxin. Oh and I got my haircut yesterday and Lynn took the puggies to the vet for me. Lynn has been such a help!
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
I was in the hospital
Last Wed nite when we got to bowling my side started hurting real bad. It finally stopped hurting later in the evening. Thur morn I felt okay. Around 3 it started hurting again. Around 6 I started feeling real bad and took temp and it was 101 so I had Ken take me to the ER. They did all sorts of test, xray, sonograms, blood, urine, Ct scan and checked me in. The next day Dr Kameron replaced my stint. It was clogged and infected. I stayed in the hospital until Mon around 7 pm. I am so glad to be home. I am on 2 different antibiotics. Hopefully it will clear the infection all up.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
I haven`t been writting like I should
Guess I`ve been too depressed. Linders office called yesterday and the biopsy was positive. Last night we took Danny to bowling and I had the worst pain in my side the whole time. I haven`t been taking any of my pills. Last time I did I threw up. I have been having awful violent dreams. I dreamed last night my house was group home and all the kids kept attacking me and I couldn`t call for help. Life is a bitch and it had puppies!! Well on the bright side I get my teeth cleaned today and the pain in my side is a lot better ....at least at the moment.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
finally
My blog was slow coming up I was worried it was gone. Yesterday I went to Methodist in Dallas and had the internal sonogram and biopsy. I don`t have the biopsy results yet but the sonogram was good news. There is a small tumor but there is a space between it and what ever major blood vessel is there so it is very operative. On the way home we went to whataburger. What a mistake!! I was so sick last night. I still feel kinda weak today. I just called the dentist and I get my teeth cleaned Thursday. I pre register at the hospital May 25th. Danny stayed home from school today because they were going to the zoo and he didn`t want to go. Last year I went with him but I just couldn`t go today. Amy just called she interviewed at Sam today and thought it went well. That would be cool if she taught there. Okay I think I`ll take a shower I think I`ll feel better.
Friday, May 05, 2006
Its 4:30 am
It is storming, lots of thunder and rain. I already slept 5 hours so I am up. I just read M D Andersons page about pancreatic cancer. I guess I`ll do just as well staying here to be treated. I don`t want to be alone in Houston. I guess I was super lucky that I had gallbladder trouble. Sounds like most goes undetected until it is too late to treat. It also sounds like I am very young to have it. Most people are 65-79 that have it. I guess that is to my advantage. I will also have to take some anti ulcer drug everyday for the rest of my life after surgery. Geez another pill to my arsnel. Oh well I`ll be thin, can`t be too thin or too rich, right? I`ll be glad when all this over. I am worried about the surgery though. Main complications are bleeding and infection. Well I will hope for the best thats about all I can do.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Guess this is now my cancer blog
Ken took me to Dr.Kameron today. He called his friend/colleague Dr Jeffery Linder at Methodist in Dallas. I go Monday for the internal sonogram and needle biopsy. I asked him who he would have do the whiffle on him if he needed one. He said Gus was a good friend of his , somewhat evading the question. We had to go back to Dr.Lyons to get my records to take to Dallas and saw Dr.Lyons. He sure is nice and seems excited about doing my surgery. I guess thats good. He said Dr.Bowers would be doing it with him and he had already done 3 this year so I guess I`m ok with it. It is just so damn scarey. Well if it don`t kill me it will make me stronger right?
I think I`m sleeping too much
I have been sleeping about 10 hours a night. I am beginning to think that is too much. The circles under my eyes are gone. I wish I could say the same about Ken. He has horrible circles under his.
I guess I need to tell my mom about my surgery I am having.I think I will wait until I know a date for sure.
I am getting bored. I wish I wasn`t still sore I need to do a lot of weeding.
I guess I need to tell my mom about my surgery I am having.I think I will wait until I know a date for sure.
I am getting bored. I wish I wasn`t still sore I need to do a lot of weeding.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
I went to the doctor today
I went to Dr.Lyons today.I am pretty hopeful. The blood work came back with elevated enzymes, the brushings came back atypical and one test still wasn`t in. I go to Dr.Kameron tomorrow. I will have to go to Methodist in Dallas to have the internal sonogram and needle biopsy. They are going to do the whipple procedure in a week or so. They are going to treat it aggressively so I can be one of the surviors. I feel really good about it. I think it was good news today. They didn`t see any mass on my cat scan so it may be really small. I did ask about chemo or radiation yet, I can wait to know at this point. I am not looking forward to the surgery at all. It`s a really big surgery. They will take the head of my pancreas, part of my small intestines, part of my stomache and resect my intestine to my bile duct. At least thats what I understand. John Hopkins has a good web site explaining it all.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Danny did great at special olympics. I wish I had been there but I just don`t think it would have done me any good. He got a gold medal in softball throw and silver in 50 meter walk. I am so proud of him.
Sue and Becky brought me a bunch of pretty plants. New Guinea Impatients and reg impatients and 2 bogevillas and mandavilla and a hybisicus and some other stuff.
Ken helped Greg and Chrirtine pack up their trailer. They came over here for a while and ate and took showers. I am going to miss them a bunch.
I was so tired when everyone left last night. I tried to watch wedding crashers but I slept through most of it. I keep waking up at 5 am too. That is so unlike me!!!
Sue and Becky brought me a bunch of pretty plants. New Guinea Impatients and reg impatients and 2 bogevillas and mandavilla and a hybisicus and some other stuff.
Ken helped Greg and Chrirtine pack up their trailer. They came over here for a while and ate and took showers. I am going to miss them a bunch.
I was so tired when everyone left last night. I tried to watch wedding crashers but I slept through most of it. I keep waking up at 5 am too. That is so unlike me!!!
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Danny with his medal , you just can`t see it good its in a fold of his shirt
