fragilex mom blog

I got so sick last night. I had a fever of 101.3 and threw up and had diarrhea and an awful headache. I feel a lot better today. I hope I feel better tomorrow because I need to shopping.
I hope the sun comes out tomorrow its been cold and wet all week. Okay it is 2:00 am I better go to saleep.

Well I finally had my first chemo. It wasn`t bad. I didn`t get sick at all. The worst part was starting the IV. She had to stick me twice. I read my pamplet on gemzar. Only thing I have noticed so far is my arthritis is hurting but that could just be the crazy weather. I slept thru most of my chemo. I go back next Friday at 10:00.

Okay I know I still need to blog more. I was supposed to have started chemo yesterday but it was snowy and icy and it was cancelled. I go tomorrow instead. I am sooo tired of this cold weather,jeez I`m Texas it shouldn`t be this cold. But then again it is stock show time and the weather usually sucks for that but usually not this bad.
I have been having super weird dreams not that that is anything new. Last night I dreamed I had a kidnapped baby at my house. I didn`t kidnap it but i took it in. All the family was over and no one asked about the baby. I also dreamed I had my horse back and my Sammy cat came home. Oh and I had a stolen dog here too, a black lab.
The night before I dreamed I was in Joplin and it was snowing there and I didn`t have a car and wasn`t dressed for the weather. I had walked and walked trying to find the old neighborhood. I ended up on a dead end street that had a little antique store and I went in and talked to the woman. I decided to steal a car and got in a shoot out with her hubby. I killed them both but i was hit between the eyes but I was ok. That was the end of the dream. Maybe the dreams are from all the meds I`m taking. I keep falling asleep with my labtop in bed. The ambien really knocks me out.
Well I guess I should be going to bed. I`ll right tomorrow and let you know how chemo goes.

I start chemo tomorrow at 10:30. Ken is going to go with me to see how I do. I am scared I`m going to get sick. Hopefully it won`t be too bad.
Amy was supposed to come highlight my hair but didn`t because Becca had to make a poster for school.
She was going to do it this past weekend but the streets were icy so she didn`t come then.
I had really weird dreams this morning. I was fighting with my mom in part of it. I was also hanging off a really tall building trying to get away from someone. I was mad about I raq and I was trying to get to Canada. It was a crazy dream.ok i need to go sleep my pills have kicked in!!!! night

It was a nice quiet weekend. Tommy did his weekend in jail. He has another to do next weekend then he is done. I guess it went ok he didnt say much to me about it.
I did`t feel very good yesterday. I had a low grade fever.i threw up once.I feel pretty good today.i made a pie ,washede my sheets and blankets did the dishes and gave Danny a bath. I t felt good to0 to be able to contribute. I`m starting to feel a little stonger everyday. I should finally start chemo wed unless the weather gets too icy.

I went to Dr Disefano Mon. He said my asbcess looks pretty good. I should be able to start chemo next week.

I saw Dr Lyons Tues. He thinks I`m healing well and i don`t have to see him until May.
Today I saw Dr Kameron he said all my scopes looked good. He showed me some pics from the scoping. Yuck they were pretty gross. He told me to come back in 3 years. It is nice that he thinks I`ll be alive in 3 years.
I am getting a cat scan Friday and I go back to diStfano next MOn. If all goes well i should start chemo next wed.
Tomorrow i PLAN ON SLEEPING LATE AND FOLDING CLOTHES.well thats about all for now, I`m sleepy!!!
night all.

I thought my abscess was almost all healed,,,,well surprise it opened up again today :(i hope we can get my chemo started ths week beause i want it over and done with . I`ll right more tomorrow.

Coke taste good again. In fact almost everything taste good again. I still can`t eat much chocolate though it is just too hard on my tummy.
Ken bought his birthday present today. He got a windshield for Baby(his Harley). He is happy. I`m happy too because all I have gotten him is a book by Jerry Garcia that was on a sale rack at Barnes and Nobles. And i got him a nice card. I think we are going to go out to eat at Caro`s. I guess I will go to the Swiss bakery and get him a black forest cake too.
I haven!t downloaded any pictures yet but I might try to later. I just haven`t tried to do that from my desk top yet.
Danny loves his computer!!! He is on it all day and most the night. I can here him in there now playing something.
Okay I took my ambien so I guess it`s sleepy time for me.

I saw Dr.Lyons today. He stuffed gauze in my abscess. I hope it is the last one I get but I kind of doubt it will be.
He said the hard part of my scar is the calcified blood is almost like bone. I also told him about my blog but I don`t think I gave him the right address. I go back to him next week so I`ll give him the right addy then.
I am getting my hair cut tomorrow thank God. It is too long and it gets flat when it is too long.
I bought some new mascara today and threw all the old ones I had out.
I still haven`t been able to gain any weight but I haven`t lost anymore either. My ass is gone. I am really skinny except for my deformed tummy. My stomach looks so weird. Oh well as long as the cancer is gone I guess is all that matters. I get lab work done Fri and they are going check my CA-19. I hope my numbers are still low. I need to down load some pics onto here but I think my camera is in Dannys room and he is asleep.
It was weird being home alone today. Danny went back to school today. I ran into Mrs Mayo at Walmart and she said he had a good day today. She said he is so funny :) I think he is funny too.
I need to Dr. Cockrell and make an appointment to get his teeth checked but it is so traumatic but it has to be done. I also need to call the dermatologist because I think I have another basal cell on my lip :(.
Well it is really late and I better get some sleep. I`ll right more tomorrow and I`ll try to download some new pics.

Okay I said I would blog more so here goes. Lat night i went to bed freezing and woke up at 3:00 am with a fever of 101.8. Needless to say I felt awful. I took some tylenol and finally went back to sleep around 5:00. I slept til almost noon. I go to Dr Lyons tomorrow at 1:30. I go to the onc Monday, Ken`s birthday. I go to the lab Friday for blood work. I am so tired of going to doctors.

Wow 2007, I hope it is better than 2006 was. My new years resolution is to blog again. I have just been so tired and I guess feeling anti-social. I have been somewhat down. May just be post Xmas blues. It might be from the cancer issue. One day I need write down all the crazy hallucinations. I had in ICU. Well I need a shower. I have just layed around all day. I`ll write agin tomorrow.