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Scooby Doo pumkin for Danny 

I went to a party last night at Casey`s. It was the remember Alex party. On the way the radio went out and the service engine light came on. My dash lights went out and my headlights were getting very dim by the time I got there.
Well I did get there ok. So I partied. I called Ken and told him he would have to pick me up. So since I wasn`t going to be driving I had a couple maragritas. Dale brought his big propane wok and made a bunch of stir fry. It was really good. I talked to Dale and David mostly, and Casey of course. I talked to Rocky too. He had on a tshirt that was cute. It was tshirt for his band. The Bluebonnet Plague. I think thats a really clever name. Casey had pictures of Alex out. Oh I also saw Phillis Reagan, Joanne and Tommy`s sister. I haven`t seen her since high school. She said JoAnne had just moved back to the area. I didn`t know she had left. I left pretty early. Casey gave me leaves off of Alex`s baytree.
I dreamed about Alex last night. I don`t really remember the dream. I just remember Alex was in it.
This morning Ken and I went to Casey`s to see if the car would start. It didn`t. I talked to Caseyand she said we can leave it until tomorrow. I am going to have to call a tow truck tomorrow and have it towed to Hy`s to get it fixed.
Ken is going to Atlanta tomorrow to be there for Tommys court Tues and bring him home. I carved the pumpkin tonight. I got the pattern of the web.

I am exhausted. I made cupcakes today for the fragile x group tomorrow. This week has just mentally draining. Talked to Tommy today , he says he has court Tues. and he wants Ken to come and get him. He is going to call tomorrow and talk to Ken.Lynn came over and I gave her some cupcakes and potatoe salad. Sue called and said I need to go make sure mom takes her pills in the morning. Pisses me off, I am there everyday. Weekends are the only time I don`t have to go. Well I`m going to take my pills and go to sleep.

Well I didn`t write yesterday. Tommy did get out of jail at 2 am Thur. morning. They turned him out with a check for the cash he had on him at the time he was arrested. He followed 2 other guys who were released at the same time. They lead him down dark alleys and streets for about 2 miles to a check cashing place. He called a cab from there. He went back to his apartment and he says it was all torn up from the police searching it. Any way he is out and may have court as soon as next Tues,

Thank God Tommy called about 3:30. He saw the judge. The bond was set at$36,000 but he was released on his own recognsince or how ever that is spelled. He has a public defender. The public defender says its a bad bust. No search warrant and it seems the cops lost the evidince (weed). He said he will have court next week. I hope he does and can come back home. I sure hope this wakes him up. I can`t take going through this crap again. I am just so relieved.

I am waiting for Tommy to call. I haven`t heard from him since yesterday. The not knowing anything is driving Ken and me nuts.
Ok totally off the subject. I had maybe one of the weirdest dreams I have ever had. I dreamed I was at Jamie`s. I was going to take a bunch of kids to 6 Flags. I was stealing change out a box. Then I was riding in an car with my dad driving. The car was an old one like a model A and it was bouncing really hard and it flipped over. I was thrown out and I cut knee real bad and needed stiches. Then I was somewhere and there were people running track and some asian kid ran into me. He was ok but his parents wanted my my name and phone number in case he was hurt. When I was leaving there ,there was a big hill with big cement outcroppings and I fell down the hill. Next thing I was at a nursing home and all these old people were selling stuff. One thing was a chair with a needle point portrait on the back.Well thats the end of the dream.
I wish Tommy would call!!!!!

Tommy called at 9:30 this morning. He hasn`t been arragined yet. The statement he gave the cop wasn`t at the court yet and the cop is off today. So hopefully it will be tomorrow. Supposedly because he gave this statement the felonies were supposed to be dropped. Guess we just have to wait and see. It is all so maddening and depressing. I just want him home or I was there.

I was having some really weird dreams when the phone rang. All I could think of was Mom was dead It was Adam. When I heard Adams voice I thought ok Tommy is dead. I always think the worst. Adams voice was too calm though. Tommy was in jail. Adams story was very vague. Something about he being out in his car with no insurance and he has a suspended license and the passenger ran when they were stopped ,that the cops went to the apartment to see if the runner was there. The cops knocked on the door and Tommy let them in and he was busted for weed and pipes. That was Adams story to me. Well Tommy called collect of course around 11:00 with a very different story. Tommy was arrested for 7 felonies and some weed. His story was he was home he thought Adam was coming in and it was the swat team. They searched the whole apartment and took the guns, weed and pipes. And took him to jail. It started with Adam and some guy in Adams car. They were stopped somehow and Adam ran from the cop and at some point pulled a gun on the cop.Supposedly an undercover cop. Adam was arrested for evading arrest assaulting a police officer and cocaine. And a gun charge I`m sure. They are also getting evicted. I talked to Julie Adams mom and she said she talked to her dad. He is Adams and Tommys boss in Georgia. He is going to get a truck and the boys stuff from their apartment and find out what the bail is. That is all I know at this point. I am so freaked out. I just want Tommy to come home and shape up and never see Adam again. Ken and I are both disgusted with whole thing. I really am hoping Tommy will see how things are going to be if he keeps hanging out with people he hangs with. I`ll write more later. I need to water my flowers and mediatate a bit. I`ll write about my dream later.

I drank way too much last night playing dominos. I was drinking Tito`s handmade vodka , made in Texas, Bailey`s and chocolate liquore and a little milk. IT tasted wonderful, like a milkshake. I wasn`t measuring it either, I just eyeballed it. Anyway I got rather drunk and played spades after domino`s.
When I finally got up today a cold front had come through. There are little branches all over the front yard. Ken said it was really windy around nine this morning. I had to bring in all house plants that have been out all summer. Well I didn`t bring them all in but most of them. I guess may scrafice my ferns to the cold they are too big to bring in. or I may move them into the garage tomorrow.
I have so much laundry to fold it isn`t even funny. I guess thats what I`ll be doing tomorrow. I should have cut Dannys hair today but I just didn`t have the energy. I will try to do it Tuesday maybe.

I forgot to to tell about getting stung on the neck by a honeybee yesterday. The fall aster is blooming and boy do the bees love it! Well yesterday I was watering and I felt a burning on my neck at first I wasnT sure what it was but I slapped at my neck. Then I felt something crawling on my boob, oh course I didn`t have a bra on. Well I looked in my shirt and there was the bee. I reached in and got it. It didn`t sting my boob though because its stinger was in my neck. I was out watering again a while ago and when Ken came back from the grocery store I came in to help him put the groceries away and I felt something on my face. It was another bee. I knocked it off and stepped on it. When I was outside I thought I felt something on my neck but decided it was just my imagination. Well now I have about decided they must be attracted to my hair spray. I am almost afraid to go back in the garden.

I just woke up. I had some wierd dreams. I wish I could remember them . The other night night I dreamed mom was young and was riding Brandey my first horse. Brandey was being pretty wild and mom was riding really well. I wish I could remember the dreams I just had but I`m drawing a blank.
Not too much is happening except mom gave her car to Terry. It kind of pisses me off. I think he should pay her something for it. After dad died we bought his car from her. Oh well nothing I can do about it. I do resent the fact though that Terry has lived there rent free for about 10 years.
Sue is back from her vacation. I don`t know if we are playing dominos tonight or not. I guess I`ll call her later and find out.
Ken is at walmart right now and I think I will jump in the shower. I need to wake up.

Well I took Danny to see Dr. Hoffman. Frankie was waiting for us there. It did not go well at all. He did go in and get weighed then he split. Dr.Hoffman gave me a prescription for xanac and told me to make another appointment. He also gave me a prescription for celebrex for me. I hope it goes better next time.
I remembered to call Dr. Moores office to have them refax my scripts to CVS and the nurse just called and said the fax went thru so I will go later and pick them up.
I need a nap today. I`m beat.

I just got back from the fair. I spent the most time looking at the creative arts exhibits. I love all the quilts and the clothes people have made. There was a wall of pickles and jelly. I saw the butter scuplture of Elvis. Whats a fair without a butter Elvis? There were also some great photographs and paintings. I went through the discovery garden also. That is my second favorite thing at the fair. They are do a lot of renovations at the park and some things were closed. I went to the food and fiber buildling of course and got my free bisquit but skipped the blue bell ice cream. The line was just way too long.
All in all I had a great time except, yes there is always an except. I forgot my 3 cans of food so instead of paying a dollar I paid $13.00 and I lost my sun glasses. I took them off and put on my reading glasses to look at the map and I must have left them on the picnic table. Oh well they were old anyway. Time for a new pair. I also ate a Fletchers corny dog, I had to! It is like a law at the fair. And I had a frozen key lime pie dipped in chocolate on a stick. Mmmmm it was good! Can`t wait til next year.

come again next year  

Fountains 

Its so pretty at the park 

I love Fair Park 

such cute buildings 

more deco 

I love all the art deco 

quilts  

on the midway  

another train  

Garden train 

Pretty bird  

birds of the world  

The ferris wheel  

The cotton bowl 

swan boats  

win a monkey 

Howdy Folks 

I hate when my feelings get hurt and I can`t seem to keep from rehashing everything over and over. It doesn`t help and it just keeps the pain fresh. I wish I could just get over it. Just thinking about it makes me tear up. Well I am going to the fair tomorrow (by myself) which is good except I will have a lot of time to think. Well I am taking my camera and I plan on taking lots of pics. Maybe I`ll even take notes.
I went to pick up my scripts and they weren`t even there, grrrr. I have to call the Dr.`s office tomorrow.

There are butterflies everywhere! There is one with a broken wing. It has been on the ground and in flower pots for 3 days now. It`s pretty sad. I put it on a passionflower and it went to town getting necter. I wish i could fix its wing. I found a dead one, I wonder if i could super glue a wing onto the partial wing of the crippled one.

caterpillar 

crippled butterfly 

monarchs are all over  

a monarch on the zennia  

a bee on the cosmo 

watch out